Phone post #2

I should be sleeping but I'm too wired up to sleep...i should probably shower then....but I'm too tired to shower so I'm getting up extra early to shower...hey a girl gotta do what a girl gotta do. I had a fucking wonderful night with the boyfriend. Man I cannot wipe this stupid smirk off of my face. Rtxfhket..those random letters are expressing my excitment and lost of words at this moment. I seriously need to head to bed though. Gnight!

Another Great Night

Hand in hand, our shoulders even at length as the feet begin to move in a perfect motion as the off again on again feather rain drops upon us. Nothing is running out of our mouths, but the mind we seem not to control. Feeding off the positive energy, the vibe, the atmosphere, undertaking this very moment. We speak so less but our mind say it all. We are where we should be.

Hello there again. Yes it is I, reporting to you at 2:52 AM. I just got in 52 minutes ago and before I decided to dabble with the computer I took a shower, grabbed some junk food and try to find something  on television. Tonight was a great night, just like all my nights with him :). We ate, we walked, we walked some more and some more and some more, we stopped and got our palms read which was interesting, seeing that I have never gotten my palm read before and always thought I would be against it after hearing about certain stories, but I went for it and for the most part she "read" nothing but positive things. Again we walked, we walked some more, got lost, turned around, walk some more and finally reached our destination which is considered our spot. 

I had a terrific day today though I still have ill feelings towards the job, I've been very positive lately and refuse to let something at my job ruin that. Better luck next time :)

Alright I should hit the hay...hit the hay? Who say things like that? I do. Remember I'm lame but before I go I wanted to share a quote about music, something I thought was appropriate with everything that happened tonight. 

"Music is the outburst of the soul"

I'm BACKKK

I'm still in the "too good to be true" state of mind.

I know I've been seriously slacking with the lack of blog posts and whatnot. To be completely honest I've been slacking on a lot of things. But some thing inside of me is telling me it's going to change. I'm going to be back to my old self in no time. I've been distracted from life lately, some may see that as a bad thing but it's wonderful. Let's face it, reality sucks

Dude random, WHY MUST PEOPLE FEEL THE NEED TO FUCKING BLAST THEIR MUSIC WHEN THEY'RE DRIVING IN THEIR CAR FOR THE WORLD TO HEAR!?!?!? 

what makes you think everyone wants to listen to what you're fucking listening to, assholes. 

Okay, I'm done. Going to continue to sip on this hot tea hoping that it will magically make my cold disappear. Speaking of, this cold I have really fucked shit up. Rosemomma is away for a couple of days and instead celebrating, I'm here in bed nursing it. How annoying. I don't even want to be around people because I'm afraid that I might give them the cooties. 

Before I got, I want to "WTF" a couple of things.

DRAKE HOOKING UP WITH RIHANNA WTF!!!!

THE CELTICS LOSING TO MAGICS WTF!!!!

I'm trying to make sense of both situations but keep failing. Please someone come with an answer and maybe I can deal with it.

maybe.

Oh btw, the job that I use to love so much is starting to suck. I'm so disappointed. Yes, that's all I'm going to say about that situation.

Ok, I'm really leaving this time but before I go I wanted to leave a quote. 

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending"

-Maria Robinson

Think about it. Goodnight 

Read My Mind

As I stated earlier, the Him that I would make a terse comment about from time to time was finally about to get revealed on my blog in terms of feelings and whatnot, well people I'm backing out. And no it's not because someone said that I was obsessed with him, lmao. Which I'm not! It is because if I write about him, then it's real. By it, I mean my feelings and I'm not sure if I'm okay with that.

So instead of boring you all with icky feelings, I'm going to post a few random pictures. They won't be interesting either but hey we can pretend, right? Right!

Life Is A Drag

My current facebook status is "It's way too many people here on my day off.", expressing my frustration with being surrounded about people even if these people are my family members. I can't think clearly because they're loud voices are blocking the process. I'm around people 5 days a week, I look forward to my 2 days off where I can isolate myself from humans altogether and be by myself and think in peace, especially since I feel I've been disconnected from life lately. I can thank that to a certain someone who has been occupying my thoughts. 

Speaking of that certain someone, I've decided to finally talk about him on my blog that is. Since I don't trust anyone else to explain my situation to without having to hear their advice or their comments, I'm going to let it all out on my blog. It's not as if I don't have people I can talk to but all I want to do is talk while they listen. Just listen to what I have to say...help me get my frustration out and hopefully I can put everything in perspective on my own. Unfortunately that is impossible now and days because everyone wants their voices to be heard. Make them feel significant in one way or another, I guess.

I won't talk about him now because I'll probably get so wrapped up in the post and before I know it, it's 3:00pm and I have to get ready for my lesson. Expect the post when I get home though.

Alright, I'm out for a couple of hours. I should be studying these notes before I actually go to class, don't want the teacher to think I'm a slacker, though I have a legit reason why I haven't been studying. I work 50 hours a week and my mom stole my book, lol. Excuses already, I know. 

Also I'm going to repost the quote from last night because I think it speak the truth. 

"Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself"

Think about it. 

Amazed.

I was down by Union Square sunday with Him and they were having this fair where artists came out and showed off their work, in hopes to even sale a few of their masterpieces. There were a lot of great work out there and I admire each and every artist for their courage. Though there were a lot of pieces I adore, I mostly favored the "subway photograph" It literally took my breath away. Fucking amazing. Oh how I wished I would've asked for the artist name. It definitely put a smile on my face for most of the night...and of course he did too.