I'm sad and I think I need to cry but for some reason I won't allow myself to. My chest is hurting extremely bad, it has been since Friday. My eating habits aren't the same neither and I find myself constantly thinking about what happened. Why it happened. When is it going to happen again. Shit I can't even be fully excited about my new laptop because the tragedy keeps replaying in my head. I just came back from outside and cried..not as much as I wanted to but at least I got some thing out. Maybe then my chest won't feel so heavy.
