My Thoughts

I have no idea where I'm going with this post and I'm not going to try to sit here and dwell on it. I'm in the process of learning about myself, realizing my good habits from my bad habits. If I push myself how far will I go? What kind of people I want to surround myself around or do I want to surround myself around people at all? Hopefully with all the adding and subtracting I'll finally get a sum. But back to my habits. I'm learning about them, studying them and what I have come up with is that I think too hard. When I think about certain things too hard, I tend to lose my train of thought. My mind either drifts away or I can't find the exact words, even though there are tons of words in the dictionary. Then it becomes "hurry and finish this shit up" rather than "take your time and get all your feelings out". I put pressure on myself when it comes to writing because I want it to be the best piece of writing anyone has ever came across, but when I finally do finish my writing I'm not happy with it. Instead of being relief, I feel overwhelmed because my feelings didn't translate onto the piece of paper. I know I have potential to be a good writer, if not good than great yet again I always second guess myself. I think it's because I don't approach writing the correct way. I over think things and then when I go back to read it those words aren't expressing my feelings at all. I accomplish nothing. So I vow to work on my writing. To not over think and second guess myself. Type exactly what I'm feeling at the moment. No backspacing. I feel strongly about writing and I want to show that. I want everyone to know I have a gift and the ability to write how I feel and it will be the greatest piece you'll ever come across.  I promise.