Here I Come

Just last week I walked into the living room where my mom was at. I took a seat on the chair, planted my elbow on my knees and told her that I was thinking about attending college in Canada.

Ever since then that is all I have been researching.

Why Canada? Well I'm pretty sure this sounds childish and a bit stalkerish but I fell in love with a tv show called Degrassi and the show is based out of Canada. Anyone who came across me knew how obsessed I was with this show. Every Friday night at 8:00 pm you could always find me in my bedroom, lying in bed watching this television show...it never failed. Posters on my wall, dvds, constant research, I even had a degrassi board where I would post upcoming episodes of the show with descriptions or post reminders when my favorite episode was going to air and when the show went on hiatus I would have a count down going.

Wow I can't believe I just admitted that...I am a weirdo, I'm well aware.

But before the show I had no idea what Canada was! I would often wonder why they pronounce words different from us or why they spelt words differently. Then you would often hear the cast say how wonderful it is to live there. Ever since then I have been determine to become educated about the country. I've read newspaper articles based out of Canada, when watching television I look to see if the tv/movie was shot there, I've been trying to cop me some clothing only Canadians would wear, I've been to Canada's hip hop sites and most of my friends on facebook are Canadians....Again I am a weirdo lol. For 7 years I have been obsessed with the country. Last year for my birthday my sister and I started planning out trip there. We even begin paying for our plane ticket but our funds were too short and I was starting a new job therefore we had to call off our trip.

Last week I was thinking why start my life here when I don't plan on staying? Don't get me wrong America is a awesome place to be born in, I am extremely lucky to be an American but I think I would feel better as a Canadian. That was an odd thing for me to say since I've never been to Canada but again doing my research it just feels more like me, what I want my life style to be like. Again I love learning about people and their different cultures, here there is a number of different cultures but it seems as if just because they reside here they must act just like us. Concealing their true selves.

Whenever I'm looking up information about Canada the first thing they mention is how diverse they are. Instead of hiding it they're welcoming it. I so badly want to be apart of that.

Therefore I have decided to go to school out there. Not only would I be visiting the place I've longed to visit but I will also be going to college something I said I wanted to do but nothing has motivated me until last week where there is a possibility of me going to school in Canada, living on a campus, meeting people who are different from me, in terms of the people we know and the neighborhood we grew up in. Not only would I be in the place I desire but I will get to experiment the college life I have dreamed of since I was younger. Going through my difficult time in the last 2 years I have given up on a lot of my dreams out here, it didn't seem possible...now it does and I am super excited.

Yes there are also doubts. Like how would I know that Canada would be great for me? What if I end up hating it? I don't know anyone out there, what if it don't work out the way I planned?

I'm pretty a lot of those things will happen but the main thing is that I try. Life is something that no one and I mean NO ONE should take for granted. We only live once. I don't want to look back 40 years from now and regret not trying new things, not living life to it's fullest. A lot of people expect me to be stuck here, working at the restaurant for the rest of my life, complaining about not having this amount of money or not ever getting to visit certain places. I'm setting myself up so that I won't look back in years to come, so I won't regret, so I won't stress about things that I shouldn't stress about, so that when it is time for me to sit back on my front porch, I can be remembering the things I have done not the things I wished I've done.

So when the winter break is over, I am going full throttle with my leave to Canada. I'm going to try my hardest to go out there and begin to school. If I get in that would be AWESOME!! but if I don't then atleast I can say I tried and begin my next life goal.