Get Over It pt. 2

At work today I was thinking why is the title called "Get Over It" when really it should be "family drama" since basically that's what it's all about.

I called it "get over it" because this family drama has been going on since I was 11. I kid you not. I'll pick up where I left off. My brother and I went for a drive last night just so the both of us could get a lot off our chest. Since I have a potty mouth me leaving was the best otherwise I would had gotten my teeth knocked out of my mouth if my mother heard the kind of language I was using.

We talked about how they use to treat us when we were younger. We came to the conclusion that we're sick and tired of it. We're not going to take it anymore. I'm 19 and my brother will be 18 in February. We are no longer little kids. You can't talk to us any kind of way or treat us any kind of way because we're not going to stand for it.

I can only speak for myself when I say this. I am so fed up with their pity bullshit. They're hidden agendas and fake attitude towards us. I like observing people. I like learning about people's ways. Over the months I have sat back and observed both of their ways and I can tell you there is no genuine love there. Just pure hate and jealousy. They've been jealous of us since we were little kids, because they're mother and father who is really our grandparents adopted us. We were young and therefore required a lot of attention; causing them to hate.

It's so fucked up because we didn't ask for this. Life would probably be a lot easier if my mother was living right now. Maybe she would put both of these bitches in their places for treating her children so poorly. Unfortunately it didn't work out that way. Now if feels as if we're under a microscope. They are waiting for us to mess up just so they can throw that in our mother's face. Like "ha ha that's what you get for taking in Lisa's kids"

I shouldn't even have these thoughts but I've been thinking about this a lot bringing up the past to fully understand why our present time is the way it is. My real mother and my aunt who is the oldest of 3 girls didn't get along; at all. Even when my mother was sick, my aunt couldn't seem to let it go. I'm not sure what they're falling out was about but it must have been horrible since my aunt feels the need to take out her hatred out on us. Not so much me. She was really nice to me and that's because I use to spend a lot of time with her and her son. I use to go everywhere with them, I basically lived with them. We had a real good relationship. I enjoyed the talks we use to have. The long drive downtown to the dentist office is when we had our best conversations. We had a good relationship. But her relationship with my other siblings weren't as good. She use to make these funny faces every time my little brother and sister were around, like their presence annoyed her. Her tone of voice would change and she became phony. As a little girl I picked up on this but I didn't care she was my favorite aunt and I looked up to her. A couple of months ago my other aunt and I got into a fight. She instantly took her sister's side. I couldn't be totally upset about this because my big sister was there and she was protecting me as well but my feelings were hurt by this. I think that hurt me more than fighting with my other aunt. Here I was thinking that you would always look out for me but when a fight break up you're quick to pick a side, not even in sync on what was going on or how the whole thing started. I was crushed. I stayed over at my sister's place that night upset. I called my aunt and told her how I felt and her tone of voice wasn't the tone of voice I'm use to hearing when she was speaking to me, that's the tone of voice you used whenever you were around my brother and sisters. From then on it's been fuck her. I finally realized that her hate is for all of us and that's because she is still bitter about what happened almost 15 years ago. As long as she keeps holding onto that grudge than she is always going to be an unhappy person and her attitude towards us is always going to be fake. I think back now on all the things she use to say to me and what she has done for me and I can't help but come to a conclusion that it all done in the act of spite. She didn't really care about what the fuck happened to me, she only pretended that she did to throw it in my mothers face. A bitter and anger person can never be a loving caring person. When you have that kind of monkey on your back the only thing it's going to do is eat you the fuck alive. So I say with all due respect GET THE FUCK OVER IT! I'm sorry that my mother and you had a crappy relationship but that is not our fault. For you to take it out on us is disgusting of you and you should be ashamed of yourself. You mistreated kids. You mistreated your family. It's time to let it go because honestly you're not hurting us when you're funny ways, you're only hurting yourself.

I won't even go in about my other aunt because she's a joke to me now. I can't take her seriously. You can just tell when a person is not happy about who they are. Therefore anything she say doesn't effect me. She makes little smart comments, trying to hurt some one's feelings but at the end of the day look at your life......nothing you do or say can ever make me feel inferior.

I'm done getting a fuck about people I know don't give a fuck about me. The only people I know that loves me and really love me are my sisters, brother, grandmother and grandfather. I don't need anyone else. They are the only people that matter to me in this world and of course my NIECE!